Small Realizations...

The point where you notice your cotton leggings are actually see-through; the instant you know that you hate everything about country music because it always sounds uber sad; the moment you notice one breast is larger than the other; when you can tell that this guy/girl is just not the one for you, these are all small realizations that can determine how you go about living your life. A small realization that I had today was that Im in love with a special person, names will be kept out of this but all you need to know is that Im in love. And its not what I would have ever expected either. Not what you would call "my type" at all. But there is just something about this person that gets me every time I see them. Im sure you know what I mean...
When they walk into a room, all things stop, no air can circulate in your body and all you want to do is approach them and tell them that you care for nothing more than you do for them. What more can I say? What more can I do? I want to tell this person how I feel; I have told her how I feel..but I know that it will get me now where...other than in the friend zone. Dont you just hate that crap?

I open my heart to you after a long time and all you can say is "We have such a great friendship going and I love you soooo much, but I dont want anything to mess that up. Its not that I havent thought about hooking up with you, nor have I not thought about a relationship with you. Its just that I really love you and I dont want to loose you"...Bull shyt right? Tell me about it. What do yall think? Do you think they are just trying to let me down easily? Do you think they actually have feelings for me? I mean we talk everyday and since Im abroad, they always say how much they miss me and wish I were with them. Im not even the one to contact them..I let them contact me so I dont seem like I am doing too much. I need help here people. What should I do?

Im getting ready to go on a 10 day extraviganza to 4 places! Check it out:
Im hitting up Portugal, Morrocco, Madrid and finally, Barcelon! Ugh, so excited!

This is my first blog but my next one will come about in a week (when i get bizzack from my trip yo).

Best,
African-Hugger

Song of the Day:

When you have gotten to a point in life where the one you love is all you can think about, this is what should play...

Edge of Desire by John Mayer

Young and full of running
tell me where is that taking me
just a great figure eight
or a tiny infinite

love is really nothing
but a dream that keeps waking me
for all of my trying
we still end up dying
how can it be?

don’t say a word
just come over and lie here with me
cause I’m just about to set fire to everything I see

I want you so bad I’ll go back on the things I believe
there I just said it
I’m scared you’ll forget about me

so young and full of running
all the way to the edge of desire
steady my breathing
silently screaming
I have to have you now

wired and I’m tired
think I’ll sleep in my clothes on the floor
baby this mattress will spin on its axis
and find me on yours

don’t say a word
just come over and lie here with me
cause I’m just about to set fire to everything I see

I want you so bad I’ll go back on the things I believe
there I just said it
I’m scared you’ll forget about me

don’t say a word
just come over and lie here with me
cause I’m just about to set fire to everything I see

I want you so bad I’ll go back on the things I believe
there I just said it
I’m scared you’ll forget about me<!-- end of lyrics -->

NAMASTE!